ZILLARILLA ON THE INTERNET
About Me
Star Divider

23-Year-Old German Based 2D and 3D artist from Germany. Hello I am Tobi aka ZillaRilla, I have been active on the internet since the early 2010s, started doing art in 2012 when joining “DeviantArt”. I always had a fascination with drawing sentient vehicles and whatever else my brain could come with. I have been in active in various communities in my decade on the internet. Many know me by my many names and very questionable gamer tags up to this one. At the current time I am active in the Living Machine and VRCHAT Community, mostly focusing on adult content. 

I have a pretty chaotic life, so I might be inactive from time to time, so replies take a while. 

Questions And Answers
Star Divider

I wanted to do a small Q&A for various things. This mostly has no real structure, I hope this can answer some peoples question about either my art, ideas, and other stuff that seems intriguing! If something is missing, you can always reach out to me personally. I try to add what I deem important? Or funny for people to know…

“Are you Religious?”

“No… I am not, I was raised neutral and generally never had such a great interest in religion. I respect my religious friends and so on… I never had an issue with anyone having a belief on its own, I only see issues when it starts becoming harmful and starts hurting other people… I myself identity as an animist and support and follow whatever Animism is, however it is a personal thing that I rather keep for myself.”

“Why do you draw your Dire Machines with unusual / weird traits?”

“This might sound weird… But I really can't be bothered to follow what is already established on the mainstream… It feels limiting to me and repetitive… Because yeah, I could draw all my cars to have the same traits and try to fit in. Or I could just do whatever and break off to do my own thing, and make unusual design choices like the fur on the underside. Or the wheels being connected to weird telescopic tentacles… I also love combining synthetic and organic into one. I would say what I give my machines a lot is animalistic / Alien traits, as I feel like that if they would exist they'd not be at all human and rather a species of their own… I have already been questioned often about my weird choice, but I really never cared that much. The same goes for having fully bipedal versions of my car characters…” 

“What is media that has inspired you, or has shaped you?”

“Serial Experiment Lain, Anything from valve software, The Need For Speed Franchise and The Old Web… I have mostly been shaped by unusual media, I always had the interest in very obscure. The oddest media that has been inspiring me is the TV show REBOOT from the early 90s. It made me connect with a very close friend of mine after they introduced me to it. But I already mentioned Lain so frequently. It has inspired lots of my writing, as I love the vibe of the anime. Another piece of media was the Portal series given I have been obsessed with it when the second part dropped in 2011, lots of my character design came from it as well… Sound cheesy but BoJack Horseman and breaking bad also played a good chunk in media that inspired me for my work…”

“Do you only draw NSFW/Adult Stuff?”

“I mostly do indulge in NSFW stuff as I can't be bothered to really work on my SFW stuff, I always try to find the motivation to work on my personal world building and other cool things, however time for me is hard to manage, I am not a guy that can keep things consistent. So everything I do is random motivation spikes where I do anything and everything under the sun. But I anyway want to expand into SFW more since I really want to start working on that lore of mine again, because it would also help with fleshing out my Dire-machines and stuff…"

“When did you figure out you were Objectum?”

“When I was 9 years old, my family used to own a Jeep Grand Cherokee from 1993 in pure white with golden accents, I really loved that car, even tho my tiny brain at the time was unable to understand relationships and the concept of Objectum. Sad ending is that my family sold the jeep and I never got to figure out what happened to him… I wish I took the chance to educate myself more on the topic, but the climate at the time was very hostile towards Objectums in general. So, I was forced to stay hidden for a very, very long time until 2022 where I outed myself after my first car partner got into an accident. I have been mostly accepted around my family and friends, and I am living happily currently with my partner who takes the form of a Hyundai Staria. I do also have a human partner who I'd dearly love.”

“Why Have You Changed Your Tag So Often?” 

“Because most of my tags sucked ass and because some names are associated with groups of problematic people I personally want to avoid as good as I can. I also was a teenager when I chose most of them. I thought pimp was a funny word, because of “Pimp My Ride” until I learned the definition and whatnot. Trust me, it was awkward for sure, also because some accounts of mine already been banned just because of the name. My second minecraft account got sniped on pixel because it was offensive, so yeah lesson learned kids, always learn the definition of words before using them as gamertags xD...”

“Why Have You Blocked Me?”

“I block based on a few things… First, if you associate with certain groups of individuals, I personally do not want to judge a book by the cover, because I believe in staying neutral… But due to experiences with people having a personalized circle-jerk where they try to brag with being able to “Identify” anyone, for simply being a whistleblower, I rather not take the chance of myself getting harmed. Especially knowing what type of people I have been around. Second, you repost/retweet harmful things that are morally questionable or straight up hateful. I had it in the past with such individuals following me, I respect opinions to a certain degree. However, I am not going to stand anything harmful towards anyone regardless of what minority they are part of. Third and last, you are probably a minor who shouldn't watch or interact with my content at all, I cannot stop you from doing so, but please know you make me very uncomfortable. 

“Do you have hobbies?”

“Yes, I have a few, like gardening, swimming, travelling and cooking, I keep myself busy most of the time, I also recently picked up sewing and costume making, but I have been unable to do that duo to the lack of space in my current house, probably in the future. but for now not happening…"